For those who can’t stand the suspense, the answer is yes. If our readers wish to take a look at something truly sad, scroll over to Floyd Landis’ website, here. Landis states at the end of his August 15th posting that, “I am determined to show that I followed the rules and won fairly and cleanly. There is a greater integrity at stake here than just my own.” I have wracked my brain trying to imagine how Landis could come up dirty on two tests of the same sample, and haven’t come up with an answer (short of the authorities having mixed up his sample with someone else’s, which I think is exceptionally unlikely). The psychological damage of having the inspirational Zidane and then Landis stories hurtle to earth hurtle to earth has been more than I can take, so I have really tried to put my mind in a place where I could be convinced that Landis was wrongly accused. To this point, I have been unsuccessful.
So the question is, why is Landis continuing in a quest to “clear his name” when almost no one who is as rational, or more so, than I am believes there’s any chance he’s innocent. The only explanation I can come up with is that this is all a form of ritual. We know, and he knows, that he’s guilty. But we all feel better if he denies it. But at some point this takes on a cartoonish, OJ-style “still looking for Nicole’s killer” kind of quality, doesn’t it? So the question is, is there any point where Landis is better off just saying, “you know what, I did it. I’m sorry, but my fear that this was the only Tour de France I could ever win, was too much to avoid the pressure to cheat.” Would Landis be better or worse off in admitting what everyone already knows?